My 3rd months of housemanship

 BISMILLAHIRRAHMAANIRRAHIM

my escape after 2 weeks of  SCN tagging. Officially completed my 1 month of tagging in paeds 

This week counted as my 3 months working here as a training doctor. And my 5th week working and learning in SCN. Sometimes you have a good day, and sometimes you have a terribly bad day. But, I have to keep going no matter what. Waking up every day with anxiousness and a low level of focus because of my lack of sleep, do AM review every morning, carry out active plans, help out MO's, and stand by whenever there is an emergency elective cser going on.

my view whenever I gather up my strength before entering my shift in OT as  paeds standby

Every day what I look forward to is whenever the clock strikes 7pm(surely gotta settle all the work before I can get home. Going back on time was surely not an everyday occasion. I can count how many times I can get back on time every day during my paeds. Usually, my father "kena sidai" in front of hospital most of the time(thanks abah for waiting patiently for your daughter <3). Sometimes, I will ride a motorbike, where I will plug in my earbuds to keep me awake along the journey of going home.

Every week, I will be looking forward to my off day of course. Sometimes, once in a while, I will take OL(on leave) allocated for us. For first poster like me, I have 9 days of OL. But unfortunately, the first poster is usually "tak pandai" enough or will feel guilty if take an extra off-day in a week LOL look how naive I was. So in SCN, I learn how to take care of myself and my sanity. After 2 weeks of tagging, I already took OL to celebrate my off tag. And I will take another OL every month to keep my sanity. I also planned to take another OL before returning to general paeds again. 

Now I understood why almost all my HO friends will go to the beach/river or nature vacation. It was a tiring life to work in a big city with a high volume of patients every day. With a high turnover of admitted patients and discharged patients every day, you really need a vacation away from this big city sometimes. Once I started working here, I have make up my mind to choose a district hospital for my MOship ( I hope my future husband will follow me hmm I don't know who am I hoping to LOL).

In this period of life, I also feel very clingy with my parents and my dear friends. Iwas truly grateful for having my parents as my supporter during this tough journey. And most importantly, you will feel closer to Allah in this tough period. Whenever it was a bad day -  troublesome superior/colleagues/difficult IV line/ difficult blood taking- this is one of a day when you will recite 1001 prayers to Allah. He is The Most Gracious and The Only God we are returning to.

Thanks for reading my rants <3